Six weeks, two days to go!
I'm so excited - I'm almost to my due date!! Saturday I was in the hospital for a while; I was having Braton Hicks (fake) contractions. I ended up being a little dilated (something that not's supposed to happen until right before you give birth). Since I'm only 33 weeks along, this was worrisome. They gave me a shot to stop my contractions, and the dilating went away when the contractions stopped. I'm supposed to take it easy for the next few days - I'm not even supposed to pick my daughter up. However, it's hard to do that when I have to move boxes out of the living room, vacuum, steam clean the carpets while I have the chance, and move the living room furniture just to put up the Christmas tree. Luckily my friend Jenn is going to be here about noon or one to help me with all of that, plus I can call my little brother, who crashed around the corner at our big brother's and his roommate's. Then we'd have two guys helping us. Yeah, I think I'll call them and get them over here this afternoon.
Then tonight, Jenn & I are helping Myron & Francis put their tree up. Woohoo!
Key of Valor
So I've been re-reading this wonderful trio of books that my grandmother got me, called the Key Trilogy by Nora Roberts. I'm on the third book, 'Key of Valor'. I like it the best, because the main character in it is the one whose most like me. Her name is Zoe, and she's a single mother. Like my situation with Ariel and Michael (her father), and now Alex and David, the father of Zoe's son wanted nothing to do with the child. There's one quote in it, said by Zoe, that always... speaks to me, I guess. Reading it tonight, it made me think of David and Michael, and it was like having a piece of the puzzle fall into place.
"Everything but that one little part knew I didn't want it to turn out differently. I didn't really want the boy who couldn't stand by me or his own child."
In a way, I still love Michael. Whatever unhappiness he caused, he gave me Ariel, who gives me more joy in one day then anything else does - and that kinda makes up for all the hurt. I wouldn't have a little girl whose facial features and hair are just like mine when I was her age, with a lighter shade of her fraternal grandfather's blue eyes instead of my plain, dull brown. I wouldn't have a little girl who makes me laugh at a thousand different things every day, and makes my world completed just by letting me hold her. I love him because he gave me Ariel. I still love David too, although differently then Michael. I love Michael the way I love Brian, who was my first love. I'm not in love with either Michael or Brian anymore, but I am with David. We've barely spoken in the past couple of months, but I'll be doing something simple, like driving along a certain street, or sitting at my kitchen table, and I'll remember the way we used to talk when I drove us somewhere, or watching him fix my air conditioner. And I know that, like Brian and Michael, I will always love David in some way. But it's just like the quote above - I don't want the boy who can't stand by me or his own child. I want a man who will be there for me and my kids, and care about us, who won't go running away when things get too complicated or unexpected for him.
Excuse the sentiment - you can blame it on pregnancy hormones, if you'd like. ;)
Restless leg syndrome
So I suffer from Restless Leg Syndrome. For those of you who have never experienced it, I envy you. I get it all the time, and it intensifies when I'm four or more months pregnant. I only get it right before bedtime, which sucks. Sometimes I can ignore it long enough to fall asleep, but if I can't then I'm up for hours. It's like... it's like having ants crawling on the insides of your legs. Or, here's a better comparison - you know the tingles you get when your arm or foot or hand or whatever falls asleep? It's like those. Moving around - walking, running, stretching - are supposed to help. I just spent ten minutes straight pacing my living room and my kitchen, trying to get rid of it for the night so I can sleep. I also stretched, but running - that's not an option at the moment, ya know? None of that worked. If it wasn't 50 degrees outside, I'd walk circles around my house (you think I'm joking, when really, I'm not :P). My next idea? A heating pad. Can't find the heating pad, so that's out. Next idea: hot bath. Can't take a bath, because mom's asleep and her bed is on the same wall as the tub faucet.
The point of this? I HATE RLS.
Quick list of updates and such
- New layout... while trying to fix something on the purple theme I coded, I screwed it up. :/ I have absolutely NO idea what I did, so I have no idea how to fix it. Back to the drawing board. *sigh*
- Please, for the love of all that you hold dear, if you are still using Internet Explorer please read this page, courtesy of BrowseHappy.com - Why is Internet Explorer unsafe?
- New tutorial up under Adobe Photoshop CS - Blending Images. I think I'm going to start doing one tutorial a day, until all of the ones I've listed are done (I'm not letting myself do any tutorials right now that aren't on that list)... we'll have to wait and see.
- Three name fanlistings up: Ariel, Kiara & Rayne.
- I've decided on Alexander David, if the baby/one of the babies is a boy (I still don't know if I'm having twins or not - stupid doctor). If there are two boys, the other one will be Braden Clark. If I have girls, I've decided on Isla Clare and Alexandria Brooke.
Updates, new content section, and the past few days
Okay, I think I've gotten the layout converted to fluid correctly... at least, it looks good on my monitor. :) Hopefully it'll work with other resolutions; I'm going to check it on my mom and my grandmother's computers tomorrow while they're at work. I haven't started on the CSS yet; either cleaning it up or doing another stylesheet for Internet Explorer, but I'll do that tomorrow as well. I also need to fix the flickr plugin widget; in Opera, the pictures run over the sidebar into the main content area and it's not centered, which annoys me. Then, when I'm done with all of that, I need to go through all my other websites and see what needs to be fixed for other browsers. I also want to contact the girl who hosts my collective domain, chibitenshi.net; I haven't touched it in years, and she and I don't talk anymore, so I want to move it over to my space at Host Gator (right now, she pays for the domain name itself and then hosts it for free on her server). I still want to keep it, though - that way I can organize my sites a bit more, instead of having all of them under EoS.net.
Oh, before I forget - I got a domain for my blog. I heard about this site, CO.CC, who are offering free domain names. Yes, you read that right - I said free. To me, it sounds too good to be true, so I decided to sign up and see what would happen. Well, what happened was I got a free domain - lastchancelastdance.co.cc. Pretty long URL, but the other URLs I tried (lastchance, last-chance, last-dance and lastdance) were all taken or $3/year (which is still really, really cheap, but my main purpose in signing up was to determine if the free ones were legit or not). lastchancelastdance.co.cc will point to this blog sometime within the next 48 hours, after the DNS propagates. Some of their domains you have to pay for, but $3... that's the cheapest I've ever seen a domain name. Some of them are more, going up to a hundred dollars or more a year to register. They also have an option where if you donate $10 or more, you can register up to 100 domains. I've also grabbed kiaragilbert.co.cc for my portfolio; it was free as well, and will be pointing to the right place within the next 48 hours. I tried to get kiara.co.cc, but it was $23 a year to register. Oh well. :) I haven't decided if I want to just point lastchancelastdance.co.cc to the directory here for my blog, or if I want to move my blog over (yay for having tons of hosting space and the ability to have add on domains!). I need to find out, first, if I can backup everything and then upload the backup if I move it, because I do not want to lose everything that's here - that's happened way too many times in the past year or so.
Right now I want to introduce a new section of the site - tutorials! I don't have any up yet, but there's a nice long list of tutorials I will be putting up. I'm working on a few different ones right now; as soon as I finish tweaking them, they'll be added to the list. I wish I could find a plugin that would display recently added and/or modified pages, like the recent comments and recent posts plugins. For all I know, there is one, I just haven't found it. Anyone else know of one? If there's not one, I wish I knew how to code plugins... I'd do it myself. :/ Oh well. Something else to learn down the road, perhaps?
The past few days have been busy. Well, technically, only Saturday was. I watched my nephews that morning from 7 am to about 3:30, and then again from 7 pm to about 2 am. I was exhauseted. Saturday morning, before it got too hot, I dropped JD off here with my mom and took Ariel & Shay to the park for about an hour. Ariel had been up all night, so about noon she started getting fussy. Adam had told me that he'd be picking the boys up about one anyway, so we came back here and I fed them lunch. The three of us ended up falling asleep in my room while watching Peter Pan, heh. Adam called around two and mom told him the boys were both asleep, so he decided to wait to pick the boys up until after they'd woken up. I watched them for a little while today, too (and by today, I mean Sunday) - Adam had been working on this guy Mike's car (one of Prissy's co-workers), doing the brakes, and the guy left and broke down. Prissy called me and asked me if I was done eating dinner (I was over at Mike & Francis' eating hamburgers - I'd already been over to Adam's about twenty or thirty minutes earlier, and got sent to Auto Zone to get a tool... heh). I said I was, and she asked me if I could watch the boys. Shay was already asleep, so he must've been really tired. JD went to sleep about fifteen minutes after Adam & Prissy left, and about ten minutes later they got back with Mike's car. But I have done so much walking and running this weekend that when I stand up, my leg muscles scream in protest. It's not very fun.
I'm extremely proud of myself for the work I've done this past week. It's mostly been my own sites that I've been doing, but that's fine - I'm getting back into the swing of it. I remember a lot more then I thought I did, so that was a nice surprise. I feel extremely productive. :)